Regret. To feel sorrow or remorse for. A feeling that has never reared it's horrific head into my happy life. Until lately. This summer, regret has built in my life like a dripping faucet that builds enough to fill an entire tub.

I've never understood regret. It's never made sense. The past is in the past. There is no changing it, only learning from it and moving forward. But once it seeps in, it's hard to make it stop. The "what if's" just keep flowing. You can't help but think about it.

I have a peace. I know it will be ok. It's just hard not to wonder how things could be different.

Will I have another chance? Will I be able to fix it?

...I guess these questions keep life interesting.

Oh Crazy Grandma...

I have a very funny family. We all have definite personalities. We all come on strong. We are all a lot of fun. The best of the group is my grandma Joyce, who we have dubbed as crazy grandma. She rightfully earned this title when she informed us that there were condom machines in bathrooms at clubs, and that the young people were telling each other to "C U Next Tuesday." You get the picture. A family meal is simply not complete without crazy grandma interjecting with some random yet completely amusing and shocking fact and/or story. We love her and this fact because she always makes family time more fun.

Tonight was my sister's birthday and family dinner at Joe T. Garcia's. Crazy grandma came and shared. The highlights are as follows:

"I tried to apply for a job at Hooters, but they told me I was too old..." (After I said that Hooters has good hotdogs and that I used to go with some guy friends in Arlington)

"I've got blackjack hustler the game on my phone. Look at the boobs on that girl. Is she hot or what?" (In the car on the way to my house in reference to the cartoon character on the screen of Blackjack Hustler)

"Now that I've got a scar on my knee, I'll have to stop my pole dancing. The men will have to find new entertainment at the bachelor parties." (In reference to having 12 staples removed from her knee last week)

Gotta love family. :)