Just now, I was having my quiet time. As always, I opened with prayer, asking the Lord to bless the few short minutes I dedicate solely to Him when he deserves so much more than that. Into my prayer crept the line "Help me to be quiet and listen."

I fill my prayers with mindless banter, asking God for miniscule things that, in all reality, are worthless. I use my talks with the Creator of the Universe to ask for things that I want, when He who can do "immeasurably more than we could imagine" takes time to speak to me. My words seem worthless. It was humbling.

Maybe that's why I starting blogging. So my surface level chitchat could leak out here.

"He always dreamed of the becoming, never the being"- F. Scott Fitzgerald

F. Scott Fitzgerald wrote this about the hero of his autobiographical book, This Side of Paradise. As I read this, I was mesmerized by Fitzgerald's words. In life, my own especially, I feel like we are always growing, yet striving to get to a certain point. As an anxious seventeen year old, it's making it to college, and thinking that in college life will be grand. Life will be perfect. As a single twentysomething, it is marriage. If only that goal could be achieved, things would be better. For overweight people, it's getting rid of that last twenty pounds. As I grow older and learn more, I'm realizing that with each goal achieved, each new point that is reached, we always want something more. There is always something else that we reach out for. This isn't a bad thing, it is, in fact, human nature and something that is to be treasured, I've come to realize. If one ever becomes stagnant or stops changing, growing and becoming, it seems as if they have achieved perfection. Outside of Christ, this simply not possible. This is, I think, something to be feared. If I ever stop changing, stop becoming and simply begin being, I will be terrified. The becoming keeps things exciting. The becoming makes each of us better. The becoming makes us more of who we are and were created to be.